MKE – Week 20 One step forward?

Live each day as though it is your last!

Monday morning this week I awoke and was possessed with changing dishes.  Now I’m not usually one to make changes!  It just came over me.

Over the years, our furnishings have only been moved around a few times, with a only a few things replaced.  We have made a few improvements to the house, but haven’t been ever changing as some are.  Mostly new things have been added and not too much replaced.  Not so much taken out.  That’s beginning to change.

So it was unusual, but I felt compelled to make a few changes!   I was the obedient servant and in so changing things around, I decided again and again things I no longer want — and set them aside.  For things to change, I have to change.  My inside is changing, so my outside must change too.  My outside is a reflection of my inside.  Therefore I must make it orderly.  This will help me to feel more powerful and in control.

Dishes don’t make the meal, they enhance it.  They show it off.  They make the dining experience more enjoyable.  Food for the body is essential, but a great part of the experience involves the surroundings, the people, the conversation.  All of it makes up the experience.  Therefore things matter, even though the spirit is the living part.

I am taking care of my thoughts here.  Why not take care of my places too?  Why not take care of everything?  Take care of finances, take care of clothing, take care of the little things.  Take the best care of the people I am with.  Associate with the people I choose.  Take care of possessions – when to keep them, and when to let them go.

Take care of the things that belong, and the things that do not.  I’m thankful for the physical nature of things, the way they work and can be used.  I’m thankful for the ideas that give life its meaning.  I’m thankful for the people who share their deep hurts or sorrows with me and be in joy and gratitude for those who share their happiness and success!  I am filled with gladness for them and I care about their hurt.

My home is a reflection of me.  It is in a state of change.  The thought has begun and the changes are coming.

 

MKE – Week 19 – The fantastic Weekend and the Week Beyond

Ah!  My dream weekend came and quickly whirled by!  I was a participant, and an observer.  Everything (almost ) went just as I hoped.

My daughters seemed perfect to me.  They were fun to be with and we were all in harmony.  I was in a place of my past, but with the people of the present.  It was not difficult, but a few cobwebs did get shaken up!  Would you go there if your adolescent home had become a bed and breakfast?  Would you enjoy meeting the new residents?  Would your mind conjure up memories you had long forgotten?  What would the blend of old and new do to your new blueprint?

For me it was an experience I could take in as an observer.

However this week I have had some difficulty.  For the first time, I defiantly seemed to veer off track — and it does not feel good.  I have had two outbursts of emotions that seem to be not controlled for me.  I have been upset.

But I hold the key.  I shall live this day as though it is my last and if I am so fortunate to have another, I will gratefully accept it as a new day, a new beginning, and I will begin anew my journey.  I will persist.  I will succeed.  I will give to others without expecting anything in return.  I will write it, I will say it, I will become it.  I will live my life with abundance and for it I am completely all filled up with gratitude.

I cannot go back.  I forgive, and I hope forgiven.  I have TODAY and I will live it as though it is my last.

 

MKE – Week 18 A week of special significance!

This is the week I’ve been waiting for!

This is the week that is a turning point.  Along my journey is all wrapped up whatever my Mother taught me.  This week my daughters and I will travel for a girls’ get-a-way to the home where I lived when I finished high school, went to college – whether I lived there full time or not, it was home.

This is the home I went to while moving when my first child was born.

This is the home I went to visit after I had a family of my own!

The haunting, hold you back statements of my Mother, yet the wonderful complete love she gave to me.  The uplifting statements she made out of love I remember,  and I remember many more of these than the statements that showed lack and uncertainty, but they were there too.

All of this makes up my blueprint.  Some of it was excellent training.  Some of it was something I immaturely rebelled against.  Some of it was wrong thinking, but everyone makes mistakes, and even I as a child perhaps misread.

Is there a limiting feeling I have?  Do I still have it?  Or is my change freeing me of this mindset?

This will be a fun and wonderful weekend in harmony and laughter.

I will be present with my girls!  I will listen to them, for they are wonderful creations that I had a part in shaping.  Sure I made mistakes with them too!  Will they someday unravel the cement I placed on them?  Will they see more of the good things too? Will they know my love for them?  (It is a part of my Definite Major Purpose)